Hate ME!!

Its not about people hate me....
Its about me hating myself....

I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH......
I can't do anything right...
I need to change it...
I HATE IT!!
I no different like a failure....

Raya...

Its nothing to me...

My Raya routine is wake up in the morning bath then follow by eat, go to mosque but not praying, come back home and sleep for the whole day...

So Raya is a sleeping and gathering day for me...

The best part about Raya is I have good food and peaceful sleep....

If I get enough sleep and eat, Its a great Raya to me d :)

Anyway......

SELAMAT HARI RAYA 2 who ever celebrate it.

Even if u do it like me...

The Most Craziest Week

I started to have difficulty to sleep at night...

Start from Friday night till last night...

I cant sleep at night..

HELP~~

Its already 3 nights I din't sleep...

Now feel like wanna boom my head....

GOD~~

PLEASE GIVE ME STRENGTH TO THIS FEELING~~

I JUST A NORMAL GUY WHO IS WEAK...

DON'T TEST ME WITH ALL THIS..

PLEASE~~~

THE PAIN

PAIN is what I feel now...

Its really painful....

Its hurt more than I cut myself...

Sometimes it even make me cry in sleep...

It worst than a cancer..

I willing to take 10 cuts on my body than this....

The pain you cant imagine...

Some people will pray to God to end their life..

But I will pray to take my heart away from me...

Missing someone who I cant be together with will make me feel like a SHIT!!!!